Happy
M.L.K. Day to those of you sitting on your couch on your pjs like me! To those of you who have to work I offer you this from Dr. King himself.. "I have a dream" .. that one day you'll be off for more holidays than Christmas, New Years etc... he.he.
Last night James and I went for some delish sushi with two friends of ours. After I politely declined a pre-dinner drink and also a drink at the restaurant they knew something was up. I have never been known to turn down a Strawberry Mojito! Next thing you know we were being asked if we were "trying." I don't know why but I just couldn't open up about it. James didn't want to either.
I have been doing some reading and researching (
The Bump is a great resource!)and, turns out, its not so easy to get pregnant after all. Did you know that you can only get pregnant about 48 hours out of an ENTIRE month?!?! And even if you do somehow manage to find that magical time of the month only 20% of women get pregs on thier first try???? And THEN if by some miracle you do get pregnant 1/4 end in early miscarriage??? I am freaked out by this. Major fail. How do all these teens get knocked up? This stuff is hard!
Based on all of the above, I came to the conclusion that I am not ready to tell people we are trying (except you, dear blogosphere). I don't want to see the expecataion/pity in my friends eyes if we don't get pregnant right away. So, for now its me, James, OPK's (
ovulation predicator kits -- expensive and so far not that telling, ill keep you updated on my thoughts re: these)and (sooonnnn) pregnancy tests. Scary but I am SO.READY.
I have already mentioned I am an obsessive person, this takes it to a whole new level. I didn't realize the 2 week wait (post the 48 hour fertile period) would be such HELL!!!
For my sanity's sake, on to other news. I moved up to #2 in my law school class!!! I was numero 4 which I was pretty darn happy with so the jump was a nice surprise. It has given me the confidence to consider running for editor-in-chief of our law review. I am not 100% sure if I am ready for that challenge or up to the task. There are so truly great people that have gone before me, I am, plainly-stated, TERRIFIED I won't measure up. However, I have had several law review members come and tell me they want me to run and want to work with me. Those votes of confidence might just push me over the edge. Pray for me as I make the decision this week and next. Pray for baby news too! I should know by Feb. 1 if we will be having an October child :)
Weight:113.6
Miles Run: Plan to do 4 easy a bit later on.
Beauty of the Day: Sitting at home on my day off trying to read for law school but essentially scouring The Bump for baby intel.